There is no word to describe how I felt when I heard the news. I was half awake when I heard it. I don't think there's a sad emotion in me on that time. I am mostly shocked. Shocked because I just met her a week before that day then out of the blue, the news came. My aunt. My beloved aunt. She passed away last week. I didn't feel anything at that time. I didn't even shed a single tear. We drove from KL to Seremban on 11.30 that night and stayed there until the funeral is done on the next day. That wasn't even in the morning. We reached KL around 3 / 4 in the evening. I am very very tired. Psychically, mentally and of course, emotionally tired. Exhausted even!
Speaking about tears. Sounds like I am a one strong lady for not even crying upon hearing the sad news. It's not that I don't want to cry. But I am actually just holding back the tears that is already began pooling in the corner of my eyes. But unfortunately, the walls that have been holding up all the salty water that belongs to my eyes had finally touch the ground when I saw my grandmother cried. She (my grandma) cannot accept the fact that my aunt has passed away. And the thing that mostly bugging her mind is, why her daughter? Why not her? Why didn't -He took her life first? Why did her once young and pretty daughter had to left her? Forever in fact. The moment I saw her cry, is the moment that I saw my mom's eyes are wet too. And that's when I cried. Wow. The so called 'Strong Lady' finally cried! Why? Because, it really is sad to see a mother crying. I can't even imagine of my own mother crying.
Well, I've saw her crying actually. Not once, not twice. But quite
some times. That was during a very dark time in our family. But what's past is past. And since the last day I saw her cried, I've promised myself not to be the reason of her tears. Unless its a tear of happiness. Then only she can cry for 5 days and 5 nights! Hihihi. Back to the main story of my late aunt and all the tears shed, I remembered something that I once kept in my mind. Don't be sad when someone leaves you forever. Well, you can be sad. But don't stay sad forever! Life is still running fast pass you. And I am really sure that they didn't want to see us being locked up all alone in our room, sitting there all day do nothing but cry. Life must go on no matter what happens.
Despite of the sudden loss, my family and I recovers quickly by my brother's engagement. Well my parents are the most happiest person in this matter. They are not the one who's getting engaged but they are the most busiest people to be running around. I am busy too you know! Since both of my sisters are busy with their jobs, that leaves me to be my mom's assistant. Well my part is buying stuffs for his 'hantaran', make sure the fresh flowers stay fresh until the big day, running here and there to make sure the food is okay and so on! And its pretty funny to see my mother suddenly panic on the engagement day when her task was to only put the ring around the bride-to-be. Whatever it is, my brother is finally engaged! Yeaaaaay. Couldn't be more happier for him. Congrats to you my brother, finally you found someone right. And cute!
And I think I can finally say that the day is done.
Speaking about tears. Sounds like I am a one strong lady for not even crying upon hearing the sad news. It's not that I don't want to cry. But I am actually just holding back the tears that is already began pooling in the corner of my eyes. But unfortunately, the walls that have been holding up all the salty water that belongs to my eyes had finally touch the ground when I saw my grandmother cried. She (my grandma) cannot accept the fact that my aunt has passed away. And the thing that mostly bugging her mind is, why her daughter? Why not her? Why didn't -He took her life first? Why did her once young and pretty daughter had to left her? Forever in fact. The moment I saw her cry, is the moment that I saw my mom's eyes are wet too. And that's when I cried. Wow. The so called 'Strong Lady' finally cried! Why? Because, it really is sad to see a mother crying. I can't even imagine of my own mother crying.
Well, I've saw her crying actually. Not once, not twice. But quite
Despite of the sudden loss, my family and I recovers quickly by my brother's engagement. Well my parents are the most happiest person in this matter. They are not the one who's getting engaged but they are the most busiest people to be running around. I am busy too you know! Since both of my sisters are busy with their jobs, that leaves me to be my mom's assistant. Well my part is buying stuffs for his 'hantaran', make sure the fresh flowers stay fresh until the big day, running here and there to make sure the food is okay and so on! And its pretty funny to see my mother suddenly panic on the engagement day when her task was to only put the ring around the bride-to-be. Whatever it is, my brother is finally engaged! Yeaaaaay. Couldn't be more happier for him. Congrats to you my brother, finally you found someone right. And cute!
And I think I can finally say that the day is done.
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